Wednesday, April 14, 2010
Normally, weather permitting, I take Lola to the park about 4 days out of the week. I do this for 1(secretly 2) reasons. I feel guilty when we are cooped up in the house all day. I feel like Lola is at an age where she is curious and loves to be part of the outside world. I'm not kidding! You should see how excited she gets when she sees a small dog, a cat, a squirrel, a fountain, the light rail, or a friendly stranger. It is absolutely amazing! The second reason is because I'm beginning to feel in need of growth. Like I've mentioned in my previous posts, I'm in search of the newest version of me. I really am hoping that one of these days I'll come upon an amazing woman hanging out with her little ones at the park.
Today was no different from our Monday, Wednesday, Friday bagel and tea time at Starbucks. So we scooted on over to the park which is conveniently right around the corner. Lola swung for about 10 minutes before she began to lose interest. A mom and son came up right after I had given up hope and was ready to put her back into the stroller to get on with our day. Lola turned into a completely different baby. I have never seen her so excited and alive. It was like she found something that she misplaced. As I was holding her hands, she turned me around, and headed straight for the swings where the little boy was. So they swayed back and forth for a while....
It was so darling to see that side of Lola, but so sad at the same time. I realized that at that moment, I was the one holding Lola back. I always tell Pieter that the reason that I don't really have close friends is because I haven't found anyone that I really want to "invest" in. How selfish of me!!! I guess what I'm trying to say is that I feel like I'm the reason that Lola doesn't have "little" ones to hang out with. I need to get out there more! That is my new goal!