emotional instability

a sense of overwhelming emotion.
once i wake up it is a complete continuation of the night before.
its a sense of helplessness, worthlessness, self-pity.
it is an unstable state of mind.
it is something i wish i didnt have to experience.
-nevertheless-
it isnt something that is put on me.
it isnt my burden.
it is my decision.

joyous song..

i heard a song today.
one i have not heard in some time.
i associate this song with an emotion-one i had as a young child.
one that makes me want to live life to the fullest.
one that makes me confident in the beauty of the world,
confident in myself.
it creates a belief that i am capable,
that i am strong.
that i am as successful as him and her- those of the world
who make change.
it gave me hope, it gave me streght, it made me believe.
it solidified my thoughts in you,
my thoughts of you and my love for you.
it makes me want to dance.
it makes me want to serve.
it makes me want to be one with.